My 2nd Day in He Cares Foundation(Philippines) SUNSHINE [1]Share.

Friday, June 4, 2010 at 8:41pm
Last night.I have cried for two hours, only had my skype call with Tszho, dont want my family see me cry and worry. Crying during the call woth Tscho..but he knew what he should be saying to support me and help me facing the challenge instead of comforting me. Actually, at the same time, i chat with Delton too. What really funny is, there are talking about the same thing! People keep reminding me: WHY I wanted to go there at first!Spread my love,love the children,helping and making impact a little on poverty. When tszho telling me and remind me what actually i wanted to get there, jus ignore anybody who are hea, thats not me, dont let them affects me. Remind me that i can actually make a difference by bringing them some suggestions, by loving the kids not only by verbal.. (actually eliza also remind me about that).

"Make a difference"- may be I am not happy cos i dun think I can really make a difference.. I thought its not within my strengths and resources.But i can try with doing what I can do, doing research on the mass games without complicated verbal explanation. hugging them and using eyes contacts(i do have a beautiful eyeXPkidding.)

Tscho is really a good counselor..maybe to me, he really is my best counselor! He is telling me to identify what really make me so upset, maybe complicated including miss home, bad condition, feeling useless in here, wasting time..etc.(Jus like Jens told me that i have to find out so as to face the problem) dun really remember the whole thing what he told me...but he is really supportive and caring..and bring me to the hope and positive side. he knows me well actually, he knows why I decided to be here, he knows how much want to face the challenge deep inside my heart, he knows that i will insist and he believe in me that I will make it. thanks..always need you.

Also for delton, thank you for telling me that u faced the same and the experience in your fisrt 2 wks..so that i can know im not going the wrong way.=) And really dont want to disappoint u somehow.:P